sesi luahan perasaan 2

this is the 2nd session..
xtau nk tulis pe sbnrnye...
nk luahkan yg xterluah nie ssh btol...
rase mcm makin hari makin terluka hati yg kecik nie..
sbb...
makin hari makin brtambah2 plak perasaan sayang n ske kat org tu...
tp xterluah..
hny tersimpan dalam hati..
memangla evryday rase sakit..
dtambh pulak dgn ade org laen yg bercontact dgn org tu..
kawan sendiri...
nope...xsalahkn die...
she has every rights to do it...
i've done exactly the same thing b4...
berkomunikasi dgn seseorang yg dminati oleh kawan sendiri...
now i know how it feels...
kene balik kat mke sendiri...
wahh..sangat sakit rasenye...
actually sangat2 jeles...
tp nk buat cmne kn..
1st step sbnrny dah terpampang kat depan mate tp sendiri yg xbrani nk lakukan..
i know..
im such a coward...
hanya setakat pandang memandang...
tu je yang diri ini berani buat...
pathetic rite ??
actually...i feel sorry for myself..
waiting over a guy that i probably wouldn't get...
a guy that probably wouldn't understand the pain that i'm going through...
a guy that probably is clueless and have no idea that i existed..
well..he knows i exist..that's for sure...
tp die xtau pape langsung..
sye sgt2laaa stupid..
kn3 ?
wannn..ble mau bangun dr mimpi ??
not evry stories are fairytales...
tp..i kinda wish mine is...
alangkah indahnye hidup kalau ia berakhir seperti yang diharap2kn..
haha...quit dreaming wan...
tp tula...
dreaming or not...
still..i like him...and him only..no one else...
hati nie sgt susah nk berubah kalau dah ske kat seseorang...
sye bkn jenis yg nmpk org yg ensem je tros ske..
i cannot like a bunch of people at once...
i can only like one person for a definite long time...
that is me in case you don't know me...
knp sye mcm nie ?
sye pon xtaulaa...
hati tetap keras walaupun dah terluka bnyk kali...
and guess what ?
the only thing i'm afraid rite now is losing him...