Tuesday, February 2, 2010

a little something for you to ponder upon

Posted by Unknown at 10:41 AM
for the past couple of weeks, there have been ups and downs for me. My inner self is unstable. sometimes i laughed. sometimes i'm angry. sometimes i cried. i had everything sort out before this. but now, everything seems to fall apart into pieces. at times, i tend to get upset for no apparent reasons. i looked at others. oh, how happy they are and then i get jealous of what they have and what i don't have. 
 for those who knows me, when im upset... i cursed... a lot... i kept to myself making other people scared that if they ask me what's wrong.. i'll yell at them.
i don't yell. but i won't answer any questions. i'll just keep quiet. 
at least i don't cussed at another human being. i cussed at my laptop normally, my cell, or my iPod. i would throw things away. even my laptop.
i don't like to be disturbed when upset
i prefer to be alone
in fact, if i could... i want only me in this place. no one else. sometimes i wished for stupid things
like never be born into this world, or wishing for everyone to just go away
vanish for good... i know, how selfish could i be?
 oh.. go ahead.. pour all your problems on me!
act as if you're the only whose got problems!
jeez.. tell me evrything!
drive me crazy!
one thing : the world is never fair!
here i am sitting on my bed at 2.15 AM pouring all my anger here
better than yelling at people 
come on, grow up! 
stop mixing things!
work is work! love is love! family is family!
when you mix all of those together, how the hell do you expect them to mingle well??!!
they won't!! they'll just crash and burn!
certain people need to know what the word maturity means.
paranoid.
what the hell laaa....
kenapa mesti gaduh maa??
problem after problem strike me 
YPJ, my plot being rejected two times, waiting for the impossible, sacrificing in the name of friendship, etc...
not just that, other people's problems are also bothering me..
they're interfering with my life
not that i don't wanna listen to any of your problems..
it's just that, if you want my advice.. try to accept whatever i say. because it's the truth. even though it's ugly
i won't make you feel better. i'll just tell you the harsh reality
because we are all old and mature enough to understand and accept the truth as it is
i will not give you words of comfort. because im not really good at it
if you are willing to hear and accept my side, then  i'll listen to you
one advice : when you fall, don't expect someone to lend you a hand. get up on your own. it is your responsibility towards yourself. people do not pity does who won't stand on their own two feet.
oh, some things are meant to be secrets. things that only you know. things that only you share with your love one. don't go on bragging about your boyfriend or girlfriend or even friends at your friends. it not only scarred their faces but it scarred yours. 
that tells me that you're a dishonest, two-faced, backstabber friend. 
if you tell everything about the one you love to your friends, where is that something special that only you should share with him?
now that everybody knows~
i am not referring to anybody, it's just a thought.
been hearing a lot of it lately. and my ears are kinda bleeding from it
i need a break. from my problems and from everybody's....



2 comments:

Jordan on February 2, 2010 at 7:49 PM said...

I can understand you completely!!! inspiring!! thank you!!!! haha... I've been down lately~~ love the last bit... m just tired of it all...

Unknown on February 2, 2010 at 9:47 PM said...

great if my entry inspired you! i want people to realize that some of their actions drove me to the wall!! huhu.. tired of everything~

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

a little something for you to ponder upon


for the past couple of weeks, there have been ups and downs for me. My inner self is unstable. sometimes i laughed. sometimes i'm angry. sometimes i cried. i had everything sort out before this. but now, everything seems to fall apart into pieces. at times, i tend to get upset for no apparent reasons. i looked at others. oh, how happy they are and then i get jealous of what they have and what i don't have. 
 for those who knows me, when im upset... i cursed... a lot... i kept to myself making other people scared that if they ask me what's wrong.. i'll yell at them.
i don't yell. but i won't answer any questions. i'll just keep quiet. 
at least i don't cussed at another human being. i cussed at my laptop normally, my cell, or my iPod. i would throw things away. even my laptop.
i don't like to be disturbed when upset
i prefer to be alone
in fact, if i could... i want only me in this place. no one else. sometimes i wished for stupid things
like never be born into this world, or wishing for everyone to just go away
vanish for good... i know, how selfish could i be?
 oh.. go ahead.. pour all your problems on me!
act as if you're the only whose got problems!
jeez.. tell me evrything!
drive me crazy!
one thing : the world is never fair!
here i am sitting on my bed at 2.15 AM pouring all my anger here
better than yelling at people 
come on, grow up! 
stop mixing things!
work is work! love is love! family is family!
when you mix all of those together, how the hell do you expect them to mingle well??!!
they won't!! they'll just crash and burn!
certain people need to know what the word maturity means.
paranoid.
what the hell laaa....
kenapa mesti gaduh maa??
problem after problem strike me 
YPJ, my plot being rejected two times, waiting for the impossible, sacrificing in the name of friendship, etc...
not just that, other people's problems are also bothering me..
they're interfering with my life
not that i don't wanna listen to any of your problems..
it's just that, if you want my advice.. try to accept whatever i say. because it's the truth. even though it's ugly
i won't make you feel better. i'll just tell you the harsh reality
because we are all old and mature enough to understand and accept the truth as it is
i will not give you words of comfort. because im not really good at it
if you are willing to hear and accept my side, then  i'll listen to you
one advice : when you fall, don't expect someone to lend you a hand. get up on your own. it is your responsibility towards yourself. people do not pity does who won't stand on their own two feet.
oh, some things are meant to be secrets. things that only you know. things that only you share with your love one. don't go on bragging about your boyfriend or girlfriend or even friends at your friends. it not only scarred their faces but it scarred yours. 
that tells me that you're a dishonest, two-faced, backstabber friend. 
if you tell everything about the one you love to your friends, where is that something special that only you should share with him?
now that everybody knows~
i am not referring to anybody, it's just a thought.
been hearing a lot of it lately. and my ears are kinda bleeding from it
i need a break. from my problems and from everybody's....



2 comments on "a little something for you to ponder upon"

Jordan on February 2, 2010 at 7:49 PM said...

I can understand you completely!!! inspiring!! thank you!!!! haha... I've been down lately~~ love the last bit... m just tired of it all...

Unknown on February 2, 2010 at 9:47 PM said...

great if my entry inspired you! i want people to realize that some of their actions drove me to the wall!! huhu.. tired of everything~

 

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