hayatilah...=)~

tq bibi sahana...4 d pic..inilah kami di induk..comel kn ? heheh=p

the end is only the beginning

waaaa..it's been a while huh ? been very2 busy lately. assignments are piling up from day to day. tests line up starting next week until the following weeks. TATU's show is next week and still im having troubles in spinning the M16(quite sad act..all of this time with the hard and not to mention harsh training..i ended up being a spare number..a reserve..huhuhu...nahh...dont wanna think about it...).. Navy'a Annual Grand Meeting is also next week and i have to present on the previous Ladies Guest Night(not gonna comment on the dinner). the halal label blog is also facing crisis. damn the carry mark is 50% !! seriously i could flunk my globalization paper just because of the blog !! wawaawa...im having a nervous breakdown right now. huhuhuh...

Note : this story has to be written. haha
went to watch street fighter : the legend of chun-li on sunday nite. went to eat at McD without realizing ade makhluk ciptaan Tuhan yg memerhatikn kami..me, pu3 n nawwar..haha...then..went to watch street fighter at 9.20 pm.. all of a sudden my cell vibrated.. jeng3..haha.. ade msj yg berbunyi "makan kat mcd ek.org lalu pon xnmpk" ....hahaha...again..sorry tn kitorang xnmpk..al mklumlaa da de burger mcd kat depan...jgn ckp org lalu..bom meletup pon xsedar agknye...hehehe..(btw, tq tn anta ktrg blk aftr movie...jasa mu dikenang..hehe)

i dont know why but recently i've spent a lot of money on food only. every where i go...class, training, shopping...having something to eat is a must ! kalau xde makanan..hahh menjajar ah carik makanan..knp ehk ?? seriously, dahsyat gle tahap pemakanan aku skarang..huhu..but i didn't gain even 100g of weight...huhuhu...right now i always want to eat takoyaki that can only be bought from queensbay mall..huhuh..it's a japenese food and tell ya..its delicious..oeshi !!..hahaha

sesi luahan perasaan 2

this is the 2nd session..
xtau nk tulis pe sbnrnye...
nk luahkan yg xterluah nie ssh btol...
rase mcm makin hari makin terluka hati yg kecik nie..
sbb...
makin hari makin brtambah2 plak perasaan sayang n ske kat org tu...
tp xterluah..
hny tersimpan dalam hati..
memangla evryday rase sakit..
dtambh pulak dgn ade org laen yg bercontact dgn org tu..
kawan sendiri...
nope...xsalahkn die...
she has every rights to do it...
i've done exactly the same thing b4...
berkomunikasi dgn seseorang yg dminati oleh kawan sendiri...
now i know how it feels...
kene balik kat mke sendiri...
wahh..sangat sakit rasenye...
actually sangat2 jeles...
tp nk buat cmne kn..
1st step sbnrny dah terpampang kat depan mate tp sendiri yg xbrani nk lakukan..
i know..
im such a coward...
hanya setakat pandang memandang...
tu je yang diri ini berani buat...
pathetic rite ??
actually...i feel sorry for myself..
waiting over a guy that i probably wouldn't get...
a guy that probably wouldn't understand the pain that i'm going through...
a guy that probably is clueless and have no idea that i existed..
well..he knows i exist..that's for sure...
tp die xtau pape langsung..
sye sgt2laaa stupid..
kn3 ?
wannn..ble mau bangun dr mimpi ??
not evry stories are fairytales...
tp..i kinda wish mine is...
alangkah indahnye hidup kalau ia berakhir seperti yang diharap2kn..
haha...quit dreaming wan...
tp tula...
dreaming or not...
still..i like him...and him only..no one else...
hati nie sgt susah nk berubah kalau dah ske kat seseorang...
sye bkn jenis yg nmpk org yg ensem je tros ske..
i cannot like a bunch of people at once...
i can only like one person for a definite long time...
that is me in case you don't know me...
knp sye mcm nie ?
sye pon xtaulaa...
hati tetap keras walaupun dah terluka bnyk kali...
and guess what ?
the only thing i'm afraid rite now is losing him...

my dream phone and what i actually get..=p

This was my dream phone..Nokia 6600 fold. i've always wanted this phone ever since it was launched. too bad that the camera was only 2MP. it should've been better. with the sleek design but a 2MP camera ? one word...sucks. one thing i didn't about this model was that it was a magnet. when i first hold the phone, seriously it was the heaviest phone i've ever hold. but it looks darn smart ! but dad wouldn't let me buy it though. he said it's not worth the money. come to think of it..i think he's right. the phone's functions don't fit the price. it was expensive but the phone was not all that great. instead..this is what i actually get -

it's Nokia N82..i know..it's even better rite ? but i kinda wish i get a flip phone. but i guess it'll do it. the best part about this one ? it's gotta be the camera. dude..it's 5MP...way better than the previous one. it comes in black which is elegant. well, i don't really know what is so special about this one. i kinda miss my old phone. hhuhuh..

wednesday nite live

lately nie..i've witnessed tonnes of accidents. on wednesday nite, kami telah menonton Sifu & Tongga di DTSP USM. it was darn funny and Apek serta Pak Pie turut menghadirkan diri ke tayangan amal yg dianjurkan oleh Desasiswa Fajar Harapan tu. an an an..hehe
malam tu balik jalan kaki tp sblm balik blk g makan dlu... mase blk tu kami kene kunci luar gate kompleks RST !! sbb ade fire drill.. mati2 ingtkn USM da buat policy baru kene blk sblm kol 12mlm..huhuh... tbe2..all of a sudden.. jeng jeng jeng.. bunyi kereta hon panjang.. aku toleh kanan nmpk motor terseret..orgnye bergolek2 jatuh..
yang peliknye..lps die da jth bergolek dgn dramatiknyeee..die tros bgon cm xde bendenye...
marah2 driver tu.. gle ah mamat tu...kalau aku tu..da terlantar kat situ... pastu pe lg.. gaduh la mereka2 itu... wuhuhuh dahsyat2.. teringat mase aku accident dlu..huhuh. nsb bek mamat tu pakai helmet.. kalau xgentle da berkecai pale die..huhuh..
utk sesi luahan perasaan 2...
bnyk sbnrny nk tulis..
tp tunggu aku de mood dlu..tp mmg sngt sedih...
sgt2 frustrated...
and i feel so pathetic...

sesi luahan perasaan 1

seksanya menahan perasaan...
hanya tuhan yang tahu...
n aisyah ku sayang...
nk confess...segan...
fear of rejection...
the most common fear among those who have fallen in love.
ble xconfess...lame2 hilangla ia...
terase berat sangat beban yang dtanggung...
kalaulah dapat dluahkan...
gerenti lega...
tp...no way...huhuhu..
sye nie penakot tahap gaban...
suh buat bende len bley...
bab2 nie..alamak mmg hampeh la...
tp macam mane kalau org tu tibe2 hilang ??
mmg hancur berkecai...
kelamlah hidup...
buat yg xmengenali diriku..
aku mmg begini...
once i fall for someone...
it'll be for two or three years...
selame tulah aku akn pendam perasaan...
org len dah xnmpk dah...xkirela hensem mcm brad pitt pon...
ble org yg dsayangi pergi...
mmg sgt2 terseksa...
jalinan kasih sayang yg dsangka berkekalan...putus dtgh jalan..
die pergi dlu...
itulah kehendak Allah s.w.t.
kite sbg manusia terpakse redha...
sape pon xnk bende mcm nie jd...
lumrah hidup....
tp kalau slalu hilang org yg dsayangi...
ntahlaaa...
hidup nie banyak sgt putar belitnya~
haishhh...
tbe2 jiwangla pulak...adeh...
jammed da otak nie~
tp lega jugak dpt luahkn dlm blog....

p/s : ecah...terase sedeyh sangat...frustrated~

a new chapter begins

a new semester begins, although it's a new chapter...it sucks even more. so many things to do and so little time. my world is turning upside down rite now. wonder when this whole thing is going to end. maybe it'll end when i stop caring about everything. i am so freaking tired....