a little something something

it's been a while since i last updated this blog

truthfully, i have lots to talk about but dunno how to put things in words

haha

time is running out

exam week is nearer

but i haven't touch even a bit on any subjects

been watching a lot of movies lately

more like watching them twice

let me see

for the past few weeks

i have watched :

1) Alice in Wonderland (2x)

2) Under The Mountain (1x)

3) Evolusi KL Drift 2 (2x)

4) Clash of The Titans (2x)

and now i'm waiting to watch When In Rome with Josh Duhamel and Kristin Bell

looks funny

another one movie i have longed for it to be filmed is Lagenda Budak Setan

i love this book written by the infamous Ahadiat Akashah

this novel reminds me of the good ol' days 

of my high school years

how i've seen tonnes of people especially teens being obsessed with this book and other books written by him

Lagenda Budak Setan is a heartbreakingly sad love story revolved around 4 people

Kasyah, Ayu, Azmi, and Katerina

i remembered i was so hooked to this book when i was in form 1 if i'm not mistaken

it was hauntingly beautiful and heartbreakingly sad

the line ups for this movie is quite ok for me...

Kasyah is played by Farid Kamil

Ayu is played by Lisa Surihani

Azmi is played by Que Haidar

Katerina is played by Fazura

i have my finger crossed ever since i watched the promo a couple days ago

i want it to be as lively as the book was

and i want the movie to capture the feelings the writer was trying to convey in the novel

they better not disappoint me

since this is my favorite Malay novel of all time

strings of imagination

this will entry consists of pictures and few descriptions

just a string of imagination

and realism

my one and only

view from suratthani thailand

along USM's museum

random flower

gurney drive @ night

all were taken with canon EOS 500D...

still learning~

a wish granted

been a long time since i last wrote an entry

been busy lately

almost reaching the end of the 4th semester

bunch of assignments to finish and submit

always dreaded the end of a semester

always love the beginning of a semester

but things are near to an end

undergraduate life is almost over

only a year left to fill it with joys 

one year is too short of a time

to take everything into account and remember them 

cannot be as vivid as the real life

but now since my dad has granted me one of my crazy wishes

i think it would not be hard to take the best moments to come here in USM into pictures that comes to life and speak to me

my wish for a Canon EOS DSLR has come true

i own one now

i own the 500D

and words cannot describe what my feelings were when i got home and there was a Canon box on my bed

i jumped!

almost knock my head onto the ceilings 

haha!

 this is my SLR~

i went to Thailand last Friday, Saturday, and Sunday

haven't update yet on my trip to Southern Thailand 

which is Suratthani and Nakhon Si Thammarat

will upload soon

with some amazing pictures taken while we were there

on archaeology trip

till then

peace out =p

i'm saving some for a Canon EOS Digital SLR !!

ughh, i was thinking of doing some heavy shopping

but then i realized i haven't yet achieved one thing

to buy myself a Canon EOS Digital SLR!

seriously i am browsing through Canon Malaysia website looking for a nice one for myself

but i can't decide which one

i have three candidates on my mind right now

haha

 Canon EOS 1000D

price : RM2199.00

pixels : 10.1 Megapixels

Canon EOS 450D

price : RM2499

pixels : 12.1 Megapixels

Canon EOS 500D

price : RM2899

pixels : 15.1 Megapixels

all three EOS have different specifications and overviews

i just wanna take amazing pictures

pictures that capture life!

i think the 500D is a bit complicated for me...

perhaps i'll try to buy the 450D

it looks cool and as far as i can see

the functions are quite manageable for a new beginner like me

if it was you, which one will you choose? 

through the silence of the night

I trod along a slippery path in the darkness of night

the cold wind brushed across my face, making me shivered instantly

the eerie silent of the night hides thousand secrets

restless, I tilted my head to the left and right a couple of times

like a little girl trying to cross the street full with cars

although not visible to my naked eyes

I felt as if a dozen pair of eyes were staring at me through the blackness of the forest

I quickened my pace 

my eyes widened in fear

my breathing labored

I no longer trampled

I was running 

from the eyes that gazed through the trees that stood still

as I was running, deep and husky voices echoed in my mind

telling me to keep running until the end

to keep running away from everything

to just put an end to everything

I stopped abruptly and held the nearest tree I could find

my bare hands held tightly against the coarse skin of the tree

sweat streamed down my pale face as I gasped for air

the dusty air clogged my nose 

the strange and unfamiliar voice was still echoing in my head 

reiterating the same message

 my legs were shaking violently that they can no longer bear to stand up

I fell flat onto the surface of the earth

I embraced both my legs towards my quivering body

and rest my head on my knees

I could not bear the noises in my head

they were getting louder as minutes passed

the voices felt closed as if they were saying them right to my face

yet there were nobody there except for me

there were no sounds except for the sound of me breathing the musty air

silence

I slowly regained my strength

I summoned all the energies I have left to get back on the path and see what awaits for me at the end of the endless road

I dare not look back

fearing the eyes would slowly catch up with me

I stood there in the middle of the path of the unknown

staring blankly ahead

anticipating what might happen if I continued with journey

will I run again?

will I fall in the middle of the road?

will I be able to swallow the ending and the answer from this journey?

I do not know

for I have not yet reach the end of the road

my eyes blinked away the tears that almost fell onto the dirt

anxious, I walked tardily along the path

again, I trod through the darkness of night

in silent.

p/s : do you think this is creative enough?

cultural fiesta : the world at home

yesterday night i went to the Dewan Budaya aka Culture Hall

just to watch the cultural dances from all around the globe performed by USM local and international students

it was fascinating!

i absolutely love it

especially the Malaysian dance of Asmaradana 

it's got that sense of malay and javanese feel

dunno why

but all of a sudden it made me wanna dance!

 seriously i wanna dance!

to the beat of songs like Asmaradana of any fast-paced songs that represent our culture!

anyone wanna teach me  how to dance?

haha

overall the dances last night were terrific

the band freedom comprised of students from different countries whom shared one thing in common as a student of USM
sang songs in english and iranian language

captivated me!

p/s : again, siapa nak ajar dan ambil saya menari? =)

 

a little something for you to ponder upon

for the past couple of weeks, there have been ups and downs for me. My inner self is unstable. sometimes i laughed. sometimes i'm angry. sometimes i cried. i had everything sort out before this. but now, everything seems to fall apart into pieces. at times, i tend to get upset for no apparent reasons. i looked at others. oh, how happy they are and then i get jealous of what they have and what i don't have. 

 for those who knows me, when im upset... i cursed... a lot... i kept to myself making other people scared that if they ask me what's wrong.. i'll yell at them.

i don't yell. but i won't answer any questions. i'll just keep quiet. 

at least i don't cussed at another human being. i cussed at my laptop normally, my cell, or my iPod. i would throw things away. even my laptop.

i don't like to be disturbed when upset

i prefer to be alone

in fact, if i could... i want only me in this place. no one else. sometimes i wished for stupid things

like never be born into this world, or wishing for everyone to just go away

vanish for good... i know, how selfish could i be?

 oh.. go ahead.. pour all your problems on me!

act as if you're the only whose got problems!

jeez.. tell me evrything!

drive me crazy!

one thing : the world is never fair!

here i am sitting on my bed at 2.15 AM pouring all my anger here

better than yelling at people 

come on, grow up! 

stop mixing things!

work is work! love is love! family is family!

when you mix all of those together, how the hell do you expect them to mingle well??!!

they won't!! they'll just crash and burn!

certain people need to know what the word maturity means.
paranoid.

what the hell laaa....

kenapa mesti gaduh maa??

problem after problem strike me 

YPJ, my plot being rejected two times, waiting for the impossible, sacrificing in the name of friendship, etc...
not just that, other people's problems are also bothering me..

they're interfering with my life

not that i don't wanna listen to any of your problems..

it's just that, if you want my advice.. try to accept whatever i say. because it's the truth. even though it's ugly

i won't make you feel better. i'll just tell you the harsh reality

because we are all old and mature enough to understand and accept the truth as it is

i will not give you words of comfort. because im not really good at it

if you are willing to hear and accept my side, then  i'll listen to you

one advice : when you fall, don't expect someone to lend you a hand. get up on your own. it is your responsibility towards yourself. people do not pity does who won't stand on their own two feet.

oh, some things are meant to be secrets. things that only you know. things that only you share with your love one. don't go on bragging about your boyfriend or girlfriend or even friends at your friends. it not only scarred their faces but it scarred yours. 

that tells me that you're a dishonest, two-faced, backstabber friend. 

if you tell everything about the one you love to your friends, where is that something special that only you should share with him?

now that everybody knows~

i am not referring to anybody, it's just a thought.

been hearing a lot of it lately. and my ears are kinda bleeding from it

i need a break. from my problems and from everybody's....